Apologies for my rant. Not that I'm any less bitter than I was a few hours ago. I'm still bitter and upset and scared. I just want to apologize because those kind of posts aren't any fun to read and it is definitely not the kind of thing I like to write, read or live. But this IS my blog, so I'm not taking the post down. I'm depressed so I think I'm going to sleep. Getting older sucks.