It is either exhilaration or sheer terror about what I have just agreed to. I have a smile on my face but butterflies in my stomach so maybe its both. I run Houston Photobloggers and I wanted to help Brandon who runs Photoblogs.org (amongst many other projects) with the Photobloggers city sites. I am now taking over most of the day to day duties. I feel a great responsibility to do this right because I believe in what this is and what it can become, but of course those fears about what if I fail are buzzing on the edges. What if I bit off more than I can chew? The more time that is passing from hanging up the phone with Brandon the louder that buzz is getting, but strangely I feel a confidence about this that is keeping it on the fringe. There, but on the fringe.
One thing is for sure, this is the end of my online projects. Between Houston Photobloggers and now Photobloggers.org, Assignment: Houston at Flickr and my own personal sites I can't take on any more. And I'm at least proud of myself for recognizing that.
So my instinct is to stay and start working right away, however, it is completely beautiful outside and will be beautiful for today only. AND I have a habit of feeling like I need to stay in when I have something over my head whether it is starting a project like this, contest even when it was days away, start of school, anything. I'm not sure what that is about but I it is definitely a habit I want to break.
I have no clue what I should do today, but I know it will be outside. It's too freaking beautiful to be inside any longer.