Today marks a change. A change in outlook, a change in thought, a change hopefully, in life. My doctor called today with the results of my blood test. Everything checked out as normal. This was a little bit of a surprise because he didn't just check hormone levels, he checked everything. Hormones, thyroid, cholesterol, sugar levels. Everything was normal except for a slight (and I mean very, very slight) higher than normal cholesterol score. So the hair thinning is caused by stress.
It's time for a change. I don't think this will be a big showy change that happens overnight. Don't expect anything drastic. This will be a long, slow evolutionary change. Positive thinking, positive outlook. I promise I am not going to turn into some new age, alfalfa eating hippie (no offense to my alfalfa eating hippie friends) but I need to deal with my anxiety. I need to reduce my stress, especially when it is caused by my own negative thoughts. I need to stop dwelling on the negative. I need to enjoy my life instead of worrying about things all the time. I need to learn to let things go and I need to learn to sometimes live in the moment. I need to accept myself for who I am and learn to be happy with where my life is. I need to take better care of myself physically and mentally.
This a tall order, but I can do it. Little by little. Step by step. With the help of friends and family. Ever since last Friday you, my amazing friends, have been there for me ..... emailing me, calling me, chatting with me, letting me know that I'm not alone. Encouraging me and supporting me. How could I not have a positive outlook on the future with such wonderful people behind me. I don't think you will ever know how much it helped me this week.
So here I go, working towards a happier more positive me. I'm not sure how I'm going to get there. I am sure that there will be bumps along the way and days where I don't quite make it. I am equally as sure that something great is going to come out of this new journey. I can feel it. Thus begins a new chapter in my life. Let's see what happens next. Turn the page.
I'm reminded of the lyrics from The Will Rogers Folllies and the song "My Unknown Someone." One of my favorite songs from one of my all time favorite musicals.
I'm weary of drifting,
a change hovers in the air
a sea change, a sky change,
I feel that it's almost there