I'm having a weird (for me) desire to hang out with people. I'm not sure where it is coming from, but looking back it may have started with the convention. Hanging out with friends the whole time and seeing my dear college friend for dinner and having a nice time all around. And if I start looking further back this summer I see the Twitter Meet-Up, the Roller Derby, the Galveston Meet-Up, the Photobloggers Meet-Up and various dinners and lunches and events with friends new and old. This is a slightly disconcerting position for me to be in. I have for the most part done things on my own and have carefully built up a wall around the part of myself that desired companionship. It was easier to wall it away than to deal with the loneliness. Now I feel like the wall has had a section demolished and while it needs to be rebuilt (ie get off the couch and go out and do something by myself) I just haven't been able to do it yet. Hopefully this week.
I also need to rededicate myself to my anti-anxiety plan. Or come up with an anti-anxiety plan. Walking is in there as is getting out and keeping myself busy (which is why it is important to get back my single self back on track). I need to get back to a normal schedule of sleeping and eating so that I'm not in shock on August 13th when the back to work wake-up alarm goes off.
Lots of things to think about, but I definitely want to work in some fun things as well. I've got two weeks left of summer vacation and I want to make them count. The only thing I know is that I have a list of movies that I want to see (Transformers, Hairspray, Simpsons). If I go to all of those then everything else needs to be relatively cheap. I want to get out and go shooting something specific, but I don't have anything in mind. Suggestions welcome.