I have felt the need to blog about things that I have been dealing with, but for one of the first times ever, I haven't said anything. In the past I have always been fairly honest on this blog but not lately and it feels wrong. I usually don't pretend that things are great when they aren't. I've been faking it for a month and half. Things aren't great. I'm sad, lonely and frustrated. I don't have any answers, I don't expect any advice, not really interested in comments or platitudes and I'm not going to go into the details. I just need this blog to feel honest again.