So remember this? When I said that my dentist put a bug in my ear about orthodontics? Well I've been thinking about it a lot since then. Some times it would be at the forefront of my mind and other times it would just be bubbling in the back stewing, but it was always there. I found one place while searching online that seemed very patient focused, concerned about making the experience as pleasant as possible. I read through a lot of their website before I checked the location. Had I stumbled across some place that was in Denver or Ohio or even worse, some place that was in Houston, but as far away from me as possible (Katy or The Woodlands?). No, Baytown. Can you believe it? On my side of town. I bookmarked it for the day that I was ready.

Last night for some reason it really started nagging at me. I was in bed and suddenly researching about being an adult with braces. Just like I found the wonderful Dental Phobia forum for my first round at the dentist, I found ArchWired for adults with braces. This afternoon the thoughts turned into a boil and I couldn't ignore it any longer. I called to make an appointment for a consultation. And just like last time I was crying before during and still am after the phone call even though the staff was VERY friendly and understanding. I can thankfully look back on my previous experience and know that I *can* get through this. Last time the hardest things were the phone call to set the appointment and the first meeting. Finding the right place is paramount, but I have a really good feeling about this place.

I hope that the consultation doesn't kill my spirit. There are so many things to consider. Hopefully my dentist's assessment will still hold that there are no major problems. And I can't even imagine the amount of money this is going to cost. Will I even be able to afford it? This is what I'm worried about the most especially since I have been working to get rid of my credit card debt. How are the teenagers that I teach going to react? I hope that since so many of them are going through the same thing it won't be so bad. What about the adults? Who is ever going to be interested in the 36+ heavy girl with braces? And two years! So many things are swirling through my head, but I don't want to wait anymore. I'm tired of being embarrassed about my smile.

The appointment is in two weeks. Wish me luck.

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