Shock

I'm not going to go into details. I will just say that this summer was happy and sad for the same reason. Happy for old connections revisited and sometimes sad because my hopes and dreams began to run away with my heart and a part of me knew that it wasn't realistic. But in the end mostly happy because I was always hopeful.

Tonight that all came to a shattering end. Hopes and dreams are dead. Right now I'm in shock. I'm in pain. I didn't do anything wrong, but I'm the one that got hurt. I trusted you. Why did you do this to me? Why did you bring me back into your life when you knew in the end I would only get hurt? Why would you set out to hurt me?

And the idea of ever finding that one person who will love me and care about me, truly, sincerely, honestly, dwindles to nothing.

Ready or not

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