Crawling towards the big contest at work at the end of next week. Spent last night surfing around the internet looking at career alternatives, but let's face it. I'm not a brave person who can make a big change like that. Thinking of getting a career counselor to work things out with except I really don't want to have that money. Right now I just feel like a big failure and it is awful to be at a job where once a year you feel like a big failure for weeks on end. It takes a toil on your spirit.