Don't feel like talking much today, but I do like this blog to be a marker of things. Another UIL is in the books. My girls choir got a 2 on stage and 1 in sight reading. My mixed choir got a 2 on stage and a 2 in sight reading. (1 is the top rating for the non-music contest people out there). My assistant's choir got 1 on stage and 1 in sight reading.
I thought I would be all bitter towards her and angry, but I'm not. She worked hard and deserves it. She has waited a long time. The tears are more for the same thing I said last year. I just don't know if I have what it takes to take them to the next level. I don't know if I have what it takes to be a success at this job and that makes me sad because I feel trapped in mediocrity. I want a job that I love that I feel passionate about, but I don't even know what that would be. I think of myself as a passionate person, but what am I passionate about? Organizing systems and surfing the internet.
A few of my tears this evening are for the end of Ugly Betty. I just watched the series finale. What a fabulous show. It is one of the few shows that I can say I have watched every single episode (West Wing, Star Trek: TNG, Nero Wolfe). There are a lot of shows that I start to watch, but the last few years it goes downhill and I stop.
Ugly Betty always gave me hope that even an "ugly" person could find love. Or let me say a less glamorous person. Oh who am I kidding. I will never have the love matches that Betty did, but I didnt' care because I loved to dream that it was possible. And the writers knew how to pull at my heart strings. If they wanted the viewers to fall in love with a character I was there 100%. I wrote blog posts about Henry for crying out loud! I loved the ending with Daniel, her friend who had always been there falling in love with her. *girlie sigh* The way it ended cries out for a movie. I really hope it happens. Adios Betty.