Tears

Don't feel like talking much today, but I do like this blog to be a marker of things.  Another UIL is in the books.  My girls choir got a 2 on stage and 1 in sight reading.  My mixed choir got a 2 on stage and a 2 in sight reading.  (1 is the top rating for the non-music contest people out there).  My assistant's choir got 1 on stage and 1 in sight reading.

I thought I would be all bitter towards her and angry, but I'm not.  She worked hard and deserves it.  She has waited a long time.  The tears are more for the same thing I said last year.  I just don't know if I have what it takes to take them to the next level.  I don't know if I have what it takes to be a success at this job and that makes me sad because I feel trapped in mediocrity. I want a job that I love that I feel passionate about, but I don't even know what that would be.  I think of myself as a passionate person, but what am I passionate about?  Organizing systems and surfing the internet. 

A few of my tears this evening are for the end of Ugly Betty.  I just watched the series finale.  What a fabulous show.  It is one of the few shows that I can say I have watched every single episode (West Wing, Star Trek: TNG, Nero Wolfe).  There are a lot of shows that I start to watch, but the last few years it goes downhill and I stop.

Ugly Betty always gave me hope that even an "ugly" person could find love.  Or let me say a less glamorous person.  Oh who am I kidding.  I will never have the love matches that Betty did, but I didnt' care because I loved to dream that it was possible.  And the writers knew how to pull at my heart strings.  If they wanted the viewers to fall in love with a character I was there 100%.  I wrote blog posts about Henry for crying out loud!  I loved the ending with Daniel, her friend who had always been there falling in love with her.  *girlie sigh*  The way it ended cries out for a movie.  I really hope it happens.  Adios Betty.  

Already?

The Fabulous Miss Julia