I've had a hard time really believing that I am going to live in a different part of the city. Every time I try to imagine living at my new place or driving around my new area I come up blank. Or I can visualize it but only through a very thick fog. It just doesn't seem possible. I see the countdown calendar that says I get keys in 11 days but it just doesn't seem possible.
I was thinking today about why I am having such a hard time and I had an interesting revelation. For almost half my life I have lived in my current suburb. 15 years. I have lived here as long as I lived in my hometown from age 3-18. I only know about living in Houston one way and that is from my current location. Not just my brain, but my whole body is having a hard time comprehending. When I talked to the leasing agent about my rental and employment history she said "you obviously don't like change." This is true. I am a Taurus to the extreme (and not just in this particular trait).
Another change is looming on the horizon. I have blogged about this before, but I am seriously considering dropping cable television. This change is almost sending me into hyperventilation. I forgot that my current apartment complex paid for my basic cable. Cutting out my phone service alone will not be the big cost savings that I thought it would be now that basic cable is added back in. And I once again am wondering if I now is the time to really make changes in my life. I have told anyone that listened that this move was going to change my life. But what if I really, REALLY, made changes. Less TV, more reading, more cooking, more exercise, more worthwhile activities. Move from a sedentary life to one with meaning. When I say it that way it seems obvious, yet change is very scary for this Taurus girl.
Two quotes I found for the situation:
After you've done a thing the same way for two years, look it over carefully. After five years, look at it with suspicion. And after ten years, throw it away and start all over.
Alfred Edward Perlman, New York Times, 3 July 1958
Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights.
Pauline R. Kezer