Tunnels and Holes

Inversion

There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Right now it is only the size of a pin, but it is there and it is real.  All I have the energy to do is crawl towards the light now, but crawl I will.

I have come up with a new organization system at work that we are putting into use starting next week.  My goal is to spread out our jobs so that any one week isn't more stressful or filled than any other week.  And if we have cleared all of our jobs for the week I want to know that I can go home early (i.e. 5:00) with a clear conscience.  I'm really excited about it and I think it is going to be a big help.

And I went out this weekend and took pictures despite still having a horrible allergy attack which has descended into my lungs.  I honestly feel like crap, but I am very happy that I went out and got some fresh shots.  AND I processed them right away and they are on my blog.  It is my eventual goal to have fresh content all the time on the blog.  I still have more backlog to work through though.  

And a few times this week, when I was climbing the stairs to my apartment, I felt like I was coming home as opposed to most of the other times when I felt like I was coming to a strange apartment.

So progress.  In itty bitty steps, but progress none the less.  

There are some other not so happy things.  Like I have been broke every pay period.  My money is flying out the window and I'm not sure where it is going.  I think paying for the cat medical treatment is more than I thought it would be.  I don't think I'm going to be able to pay for the apartment to be cleaned which is a complete bummer but the cat comes first.  I'm really hoping once I get my work life on track that then I can turn my attention to my  home/social/photo life and get it into a more routine. I want the routine to include going out and taking photos, riding my bike, cooking healthy meals, keeping my apartment picked up and enjoying my down time instead of being a zombie in front of the TV/computer.  And plug the hole in my wallet.

I hope I can get back to a crawl

Through pain's lens