As I posted in August I am trying to put myself out there a lot more in the dating and/or friendly companionship realm and as of right now it has not been going well. I've met people that I've had a nice time with a time or two and then they disappeared. That's happened more than once. And this week I met a guy who was obviously playing some kind of game. My brain is still in denial that people would think that it is ok to treat other people like that. I can't even fathom it.
So I've been feeling down and like there is no hope for me to ever find anyone. None of the optimism for the future when I wrote that post. I have't had a good cry about it yet and I definitely need that release. No time right now to be puffy eyed. Maybe this weekend. What I hate is that now I feel burned and don't want to try anything again. But I know that would be letting him win and I also know that I'm going to have to go through a lot of frogs (or in thise case jackasses) to find people who are worth my time.
It's funny but when I went back to find the post to link to I found a message from my past self to my current self:
4. Stop Fearing Rejection
In the blog post he says it will happen. Smile, walk away and find the next interesting person. I love that. I need to remind myself that I don't have to marry that one person who sent me an email and said they were interested in meeting me (example of my brain malfunction) and if it doesn't work out there will be someone else out there. And for goodness sakes not to settle. In another post he mentions that there are creeps out there no matter your body type. They are a fact of life, but you don't let them throw you off course. Walk away.
This item wasn't the main focus for me when I wrote the post, but I sure need it today. So I'm going to work on it. Smile and walk away.